Goddess versus Ms Attention Deficit Syndrome( well,...almost)

The girl whom I was talkin about in one of my entries finally blurted it out...She finds me ignoring her too much to take...and she would seek the help of HR if this would continue...duh!!! Well she talked to our trainor and we were asked to patch things up.
After some senseless argument on whose right or wrong...I gave in...We reconciled.But it made me chuckle devilishly inside that hey...Im this much to her!to think that Im not doing anything nasty...yet!hehe! well,She challenged a Goddess...so there.
she wrote me a letter later on explaining and acknowledging her mistakes and insecurities.It touched me.Knowing that beneath that ms know it all facade is just a girl who just wants to be accepted and is doing it a wrong way.It made me feel blessed as well that I dont have to feign confidence.Well,I might not have the revenge Im wanting but making me realize that Im a lot better than the current state shes in now is definitely a reason to make me thankful.

PS were friends now and shes
starting to tone down.

Come Inside My Heart

The first Korean lovesong that captured my heart.This song is from Full house,a korean love/comedy story about an actor and a writer whos tupsy turvy love ended in a fairytale romance...I love this song though I couldnt understand it.Hence the endless search for the translation of this song.Luckily I found the translation...Enjoy the song and its words in english!!!







COME INSIDE MY HEART
Full House Theme Song

Come now inside my heart, You're telling me about love
I pray that this isn't a dream
My heart keeps telling me that i shouldn't let go of you
and that i should be greedy.. it's saying stuff that's stupid
Your love that came accidently.. it wasn't strange at all
But I didn't know that our promised relationship/fate/destiny would become love..

Stanza:
Sometime later, I have to send you away.. but I don't have the confidence to do that
You found the place that I was alone at.. Now you're gonna go back
I knew it was going to happen, but why does my heart hurt
Now you're gonna go back to your place because you found the love you wanted
I have to send you, a happy/bliss person, away with a smile

Stanza:
You tell me about Love while lookin into my eyes, but it's a lightly passing by (small/grazing) love
I'm so happy right now, it's like i'm dreaming a dream
Now you know that from the beginning we were in love
You found the place that I was alone at.. Now you're gonna go back

Stanza 2:
I knew it was going to happen, but why does my heart hurt
Now you're gonna go back to your place because you found the love you wanted
I need to send you, a happy/bliss person, away with a smile
Can't you give me your love, Can you really not/Is it Impossible?
But now I love you so much...

Getting a job and Ms. Attention Deficit Syndrome

I got a new job last monday...God is really sooo good.Plus the fact that I realized how my husband loves me that much.He rooted for me to just go on coz he knows I'll get it.I never told my parents though...Ill just suprise them with money from my first salary.
The batch that I was in was pretty ok.except for one girl who has an attention deficit syndrome.I thought she was ok the first time thats why I gave in to her friendship.Wrong decision.I think I resurrected Cruella deVille.
Lets call her that.Ms Deville thinks that shes all that...the powers that be so to speak.Always knows everything.I couldve just ignored it when the most dreadful thing happened.She made a not so nice comment after I expressed my opinion.You know how Goddesses get back when offended right?...=)
I kept my cool but deep inside I was seething with anger.How could this organism impose on me and act as if shes the center of the universe?It didnt stopped there...She even questioned the credibility of our trainer for just an added point in our test!!! how rude and shallow headed can you get?!!!
I'll keep my cool and just ignore her for the following days to come.After all,she is not the reason why I'm there.I've got a career to focus on to and my lovelife.Im complete.I just dont know about her...And I dont care.



P.S. Im still thinking of crashing her skull
and smearing her brainbits on the wall...
Now,that would be fun, wouldnt it?hehe

Big Girls Don't Cry

Love this song...No other than from the Duchess.Enjoy!!!



BIG GIRLS DONT'T CRY

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da

Smacked Down

July 19 2007 would really go down in history as one of the unfortunate days in my life...As if the whole cosmic forces came smackin down on me.First I walked out of my job...My superior took it against me that I have many absences.This is when my grandmother died and when I got sick big time...He disclosed the fact to me starting with the usual intro "im sorry to inform you..." that I didnt passed the appraisal thing.Strangely,I was happy to know that I wont be regularized...most probably because the whole thing of working with them doesnt appeal to me anymore...its the same routine.And the people are mostly super fake.The way they kiss ass would really shame the vacuum cleaner.And I've been feeling that this superior have the grudge on me for the longest time.Hes gay and I guess I'm more beautiful than him =)I got someone who loves me and all he got are rumors of relationship.It was a nice thing and a relief that I wouldnt be working with them anymore...but I got sad,i mean half of me.I havent told my parents about it.and I almost broke up with my guy last night as well...aah,the tension of everything that happened proved to be much to take last night.I was complete mess.
Luckily my boyfriend was really understanding...he held on to me despite the fact that I was in pieces and thankGod,were still intact.I slugged it out with tears last night and am feeling better now.I know God listens and Ill have a better thing for me in the future...Ill just keep my faith.His love endures...



P.S. Ill get the job by Monday...its job hunting time again!!!

Just when is next time...?

Just when is next time?...or tomorrow?...that you will love again after the tempest...and everything would still be in one piece...
In retrospect,upon looking back on what I have become after so many heartbreaks I've been through,It dawned on me that these scars just made more optomistic.Some would just quit and some would whine about how unfortunate they are but whenever Im in the pits,I shed a tear...and promise myself that it would be the last time I'll shed a tear for that guy.
I never thought Id reach this far on the relationship department.Many times I've been sidetracked and made to believe that everything was ok...only to know that it was just me trying to work things out...And I thought this vicious cycle wont end...
Still,It made me hold on...hold on to the thought that a heart who knows how to love wont go unnoticed...that the spaces in my hand would still be filled with someone elses...I held on,despite the pain.
It made me cherised the little details in everything.Things that made me happy...and those that can make others happy.Pain is beneficial if it teaches you to hold on and be strong...and the wisdom that comes with the learning.
Dont get me wrong...Im happy with someone who loves me just as much as I love him.But there are quiet moments in one's life where you need to look deep within and asses how far you've gone thru...despite the pain and all.
So just when is next time...? I may not know the right answer but this I know...As long as you keep that little faith that love would find you...that God is preparing the best love story for you...The next time youll fall will always be there...till you can wrap your arms with that person and cherish him...for keeps.

Digital Orgasm

I just love the digital fix on this...this is Itai Atlas,an Israeli hunk...damn...love the concept and the orgasmic emotions...I could almost feel the sensation on the pic...sensual and sexual.