Transparency...or somewhat like it

Friends are there to be your support system.And Im really thankful that I have them its just that now,I dont know if its right that I told them what I feel firsthand.
Im not happy with my current immediate superior and the team mates that I have.Somethings just not right.Being the sensitive guy that I am,I just cant pinpoint it.It all started when my efforts on this certain contest where overlooked.I felt unappreciated.That where I started to get frozen.Before I used to devout most of my time to my previous team but now it has a timeframe of 10 hrs only.I wanna get away from them as soon as possible.Im not comfortable anymore.
I know its not right that i told my friends abt what I feel first but then again...friends understand you in your own wavelength.They dont judge you for what you are and your thoughts.Well,the upshot of it was my superior learned about it and she texted me about the whole thing.Now where would you start to break the news that you dont wanna be in her team anyway?I still look up to her thats why I dont know how to start.Well as long as I can be transferred to another team,thats fine.
I already talked to our director about this and he advised me that he will definitely give a feedback to her.I ask him what if she bullied me because of this?The director informed me that if in anyway the treatment change,I should inform him at once.Im still keeping my fingers crossed that everything will be fine and I will be transferred.Good thing I have my boyfriend whos there for me..he patiently listened and hugged me.In him I was able to find support and love.and with my family around me,I know ill get over this obstacle.

Changes...

I dont think I'll ever fit in to a situation and get stuck in it till kingdom come.I dunno...I hate being stagnant.I can stay for like a month or two but u can bet your two cents that i'll start squirming after that...Just like what im feeling right now with the people around me...in my work place.I wanna soar high and welcome the change.as refreshing as the skies above me.
Dont get me wrong...I can blend easily with people and most often than not,I am the life of the group.but I wanna do things with friendship.Not out of respect solely.I long for the time that I was in my previous team.Where everything was done with camaraderie and the willingness to help...even if its thank you only.
I can combine friendship and respect but if its just one...I dont think I can survive that long to be productive.I pulsate with lights..different lights and emotions...Respect is good..but I need to be humane...And I wanna do things with not just respect...but because they are my friends.I have done my part and delivered the goods...I can only hope for the best...And I'm really raring to go to my former team.

Nancy Jane's Love song..The DanceFloor Goddess is born

Nancy Castiglione reemerged as one of the Goddesses of the dancefloor...And we were not dissapointed.The pixie faced girl was gone and lo and behold...A sexy siren beckons to you...armed with the hypnotic voice and music...Its like Hed Kandi meets Kylie Minogue.
Her carrier track is Love song...A dance music that ironically is haunting...the effect is similar after listening to Bonnie bailey's Ever After.It makes you crave for more.The electronica blends harmoniously to her angelic childlike voice...before you know it,its too late...youre hooked.

Just for the test drive,I had the song played in the gym and most of my gymbuds asked me who's that girl singing...was it a new release from Kylie Minogue?Their jaw dropped when I told them that its nancy castiglione...They just dont wanna take it till they could get hold of the cd...well,4 buff guys rushed to the music store after they worked out.hehehe.they werent dissapointed either.
Congratulations to you Nancy Jane on your maiden album!! ! more power!!!

OJ Mariano Ballads feat If ever youre in my arms again

I just grabbed a copy of Oj mariano's ballads.A collection of the most heartwarming lovesongs sung in a male point of view.His rendition of If ever youre in my arms again totally blew me away!!! he turned this song into his own,and an RnB version to boot.I was speechless.
Never was an emotion fully showcased in a song,to think that this song has been reincarnated many times.It sounded new in his voice.And you could almost feel the longingness in it...especially in the end...You could almost imagine a guy..still inlove..under the rain standing...begging you to be in his arms again..promising you forever...with all his heart.
The other songs in the album are excellent pieces making up the totality of the impact.He might not be as popular as your Jed maddela but he definitely knows how to sing with his heart...with passion and soul.His album is a must have if your a sentimental dude...youll never go wrong buying it.Trust me.Im a convert now.More power in your music!

Skinny jeans and all shit....

Before you start reacting to the recent post...its just my way of viewing what I've been seeing around...guys...girls and God forbid!!! gays alike. Personally...I dont like the fashion nowadays...its all freakin skinny jeans everywhere...so tight that by just looking at them you could have a hernia.
I dunno...this whole thing on the jeans doesnt appeal to me the way flared hipster got me before...I mean..sure this is hugging the curves but then again...you might as well just wear a stocking if you want is the pair of jeans this tight.Not to mention that NOT all have been blessed with nice shape of calves...Ugh! Its just an ugly sight.
Im for the straight cut to flared type of pants...flared type of pants looks sexy especially the dangerously low cut...I dont usually wear any undies when I wear this type of jeans but make sure that I shaved my pubes to attain those almost baby hairs...You could guess the rest when I raise my arms to hold the steel bar in MRT train on a rush hour...hehe.guys and girls alike would stare at my navel...the "karug" going down to my bulge...Come to think of it...I already got 3 proposals when I alighted from the train on 3 different occasions...with 3 diff guys...but thats for another story.



Now back to fashion mishaps...Another thing im seeing is the scarves that resembles those worn by taliban men..the kind that resembles a table cloth usually in white and checkered red...I mean..cmon! color wheel has more than these colors and by Gads name! ...dont wear it here during summer!!! this is a Tropical country!! and you in any way dont look hot on these scarves...you just remind me of taliban dickheads who killed stupidly in their wrong notion of Jihad.Why dont you wear something that resembles the neck warmers that we see on korean telenovelas...that is way better and could go with almost any get up..BUT PLEASE...that doesnt give you the freakin excuse to wear it outside during lunch hour.THIS IS A TROPICAL COUNTRY...and cold months are from september to january.Hope that sinks in.
Fashion may come and go and most people join the fad.I had to admit that Ive been guilty at many times but this I think,is one fad that I'll go up against...Skinny jeans dont look good on muscular guys like me...and the same goes for you guys/gays out there!...If you have a pair of gastrocnemius(calves) the size of boxing glove then dont wear skinny jeans.Or risk looking like a mutated version of Donna cruz when she was in her leggings and oversized polo days.

This shouldnt have happened...but then again...

I dunno whats gotten into the cosmic alignment that time...and I wasnt prepared for that as well...But something happened...something im not expecting and left me dumbfounded but oddly satisfied...this is not being unlucky...wanna find out...?read on...

I just got out of the gym...sore muscled tired from lifting weight and I decided to have my massage in the mall where they got blind masseurs.I asked for a full body and was taken to a cubicle.Im simply glad to have my massage.
I stripped everything and lay on my tummy and waited for the masseur.Then he arrived.He was a mid forty man,tall,a bit cute and blind(at least that what I know coz hes wearing shades)then he startes massaging me.

Im usually the moaner type...with the muscles slowly being massaged..I couldnt help it.The room got filled up with my moans...(sexy moans if your outside and hearing it,you might think someone is fuckin inside...hehehe).Whe he massaged my lower part...he changed from liniment to lotion...to make it smooth so he said.I couldnt care less...Im having the time of my life...but theres more to come...and it did came when i least expected it.he massaged my butt cheeks slowly,kneading the firm orbs...and then went to massage my lower abs..where my treasure trail grows...and his fingers got acquainted with my pubic skin...hairs and all.

Im a perfectly healthy gay man...and before I knew it...my cock was hard and throbbing.Sensing that im having a massive erection down...he slowly held my cock and gently move his hand up and down...This time I closed my eyes...and my moans lessened.I was biting my lower lip from sheer pleasure.I couldnt take it anymore...I lied on my back and and opened my legs...and he had the full view to get his hands busy...

He massaged my crack...(I love it damn!) my balls and my cock firmly and gently...my hips moving to fuck his encircling hand accordingly...and when Im about to explode...He massaged my crack in circular motion and jerked me simultaneously.I couldnt contained the pleasure anymore...With a heavy moan and grunt,I exploded in his hands.My cum spurting and hitting me in the chest,neck and cheeks.he got hit in the uniform as well...

I lay there motionless while he was cleaning me with a towel...Was I bad? i mean I just lay there and responded to him...more like a primal instinct.And I enjoyed it very much.Needless to say,I got dressed,went out and paid the fee and gave him a tip.Nobody knew what happened inside the cubicle.it happened to fast...too soon...When I got out...it dawned to me..this is my first encounter with a blind man...and I fuckin liked it. hehehe

Hana Kimi...and getting hooked in it

I was bitten with a the hana kimi bug...my sister was begging me to get a dvd of this since last week and I,being a good big brother bought her that.So there.
Last saturday after I got from the gym,there was nothing else to do at the house.My whole family decided to have a recollection at the mall and I was home alone.Being an active person that I am,I wandered around the house and couldnt find anything I could busy myself into...then I turned into the stack of the dvd's.It turned out to be the best decision Ive had last saturday!
I chunked in the Hana kimi dvd and voila! I was transported into the world of innocent yet courageous love...the one which will brave the odds...even transferring from America to Yang kai(the school)Taiwan to make ones dream come true.This is the world of Lu rui xi(ella Chen),Xiu yi(Jiro Wang) and Zuo yi Quan(Wu Chun).
Ive never been so engrossed before...I mean after the meteor garden mania...Ive never come to look at these series as worth my time...but then again...Hana Kimi held me like a glove...a spell...and before I knew it...It was too late.I was hooked.
The story is superb..tho for the melodramatics it may sound shallow but then again...No one can contest the level of emotions with it comes to the heart...and fallin for the guy who made you turn around your principle 360 degrees!
I was able to relate with Rui Xi (Ella).I was once like her.I think I have gone to great lenghts before in the name of love.Was scarred yet unrelentlessly fighting.to be with that person no matter what.A painful yet worth remembering stage in my life.I dunno but when Rui Xi cried because of her being ignored by Quan ...I find myself crying with her...probably because her tears reminded me of the one I shed long ago...out of desperation and helplessness...Asking why everything is turning into an obstacle when all I want at that time was just to be with his side.To protect and love him.Such pure thoughts and wishes...in the name of love.

I like the innocent intrigue of secretly fallin for each other and yet trying hard to contain and get hold of ones self...that is sooo romantic...They had me in giggles and pink bubbles.hehehe! what can I say? Wu chun is one of the most handsome asian actors Ive come across with...and the idea of Him loving you secretly was just too much to take...HAHAHA!!! Im beginning to be cheezy again!!!
Jiro wang is hilarious and supplies most of the laughing parts.A talented actor and equally handsome...I dunno...Hes just so endearing and whoa!!! He posseses the same heavenly body as Wu chun...Il gladly take both of them anytime!!! hahahaha!!!
Seriously,Hana kimi's plot might be shallow on the first time but if youre able to read the underlying message...its more than the highschoolish love...its strength and love combined and personified.Like Rui Xi...I havent lost the zest to fight for what I believe would last a lifetime..be it love or otherwise.And Hana kimi just made me realize that if you persevere and fight for what you feel...dreams do come true...and more!!!One look at how Quan starts to care for Rui xi would prove everything.Hana kimi Rocks!!!

P.S. I like the light gay undertones of the plot as well...=)