Let me know if I'm doing this right...

I love this song....so raw and sensual...one of my most sensual dream is to make love with this on the background...along with the candles and incense..pretty cool huh!hehe...but up to know im still shall we say...planning for that one special event...and hoping that the arms ill be caressing would be yours...

MY TWISTED SIDE...EMERGING

Hey...hows it going?im quite ok now...far better than the person i once was... It really helped me that i got friends who made me realize that life is still worth cherishing and it would really be a fuckin waste of time to cry over some loser...Thats me...Not long ago... I bounced back with all the sweet viciousness inside me..I am taking one day at a time...savoring all the beauty this world will give me and bidding my time...Taking care of my self better and more meticulously...I have forgotten the real me when i was so into this person...Its about time that I set free the Hunk in me...its freakin overdue.. Watch out as I set flight for the world to see...You who once said Ill never make it without you...will be very suprised...I have become a better person and the world will be my playground...This time,my game...my rules. REVENGE IS INDEED BEST SERVED COLD...

THE ROSE

"And the first rose bloom... Amidst the darkened skies... Caressed with innermost secrets of love

long forgotten... Of times long gone... passions long buried, Still waiting...hoping For the resurrection that will never come... ...The rain turned into howling winds... As the rose tried to feel.. The pointless dream of being alive... and the loneliness inside... teardrops fell from the skies... And touched the lips of that rose... As it cried gently from the pain ...of immortality...and eternity... "

To the one who owns my heart

this my song from the one who currently owns my heart(and hopefully the last...) God...Im freakin fallin again...Hoppe he will be the last guy ill be givin my heart with...love you Jay...

LOVE THIS SONG...A PERSONAL ANTHEM

Is it hard to believe I'm okay
After all, it's been a while since you walked away
I'm way past crying over your finding someone new
You turned my days into bright
But now I see the light
And this may be a big surprise to you
REFRAIN:
(But/'Cause) you've made me stronger by breaking my heart
You ended my life and made a better one start
You've taught me everything from fallin' in love
To letting go of a lie
Yes, you've made me stronger, baby, by saying goodbye
If you'd rather believe I'm not over you
Go ahead-there's nothing wrong with making believe
I know 'cause I used to pretend you'd come back to me
But time has been such a friend
Brought me to my senses again
And I have you to thank for setting me free
(Repeat Refrain)
Think again
Don't feel so sorry for me, my friend
Oh, don't you know
I'm not the one at the losing end.
(Repeat Refrain twice moving into higher notes 'till fade)
You made stronger by saying
Goodbye...

A pain long forgotten...

This song will always hold a special place in my heart...it reminds me of a person whom I gave my all...well almost but got nothing in return...But still never felt any grudge for he was the one I fell for first time...my first real love...to you..we may never see each other again but your memory will always be here...along with this song in my heart...SATOxxx

TORN...BIG TIME!!!!

...I admit,im a bit of a player...maybe it came from that old childhood insecurity that ill never have a good relationship when I grow up.I currently have 4 people who is so into me...i dunno....Recently,i ditched the first and the oldest relationship that I have.It was painful but somehow I was relieved.The most confusing part was when I wasa about to ditch the las two...It felt hard...and a bit painful...I thought I'll be fine...but then one of the guys just wont let go.He called me up and started explaining.Im still a bit vulnerable coz I took it all and im still with him.The guy,s from the south and a med representative...Fuck! im freakin Torn...Guess im about to ditch my vampy-diva attitude towards love real soon....