Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Bakit Ikaw pa rin...
another one of the old favorites...maricris garcia's good in this song.it was originally done by Ella mae saison for Gimik! the movie...its a poignant bittersweet song...enjoy reminiscing...
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Sana maulit Muli...(My Saddest entry by far...)
I recently gave my heart to person who sadly doesnt even know how to appreciate it...I gave everything...the tears..the love...and the longing to no avail.It hurts to know that after everything I've done...My heart would still be left alone...cold and deserted.
Just when is enough? I dont know...At this point, Im still trying to grasp everything.Making sense of what has transpired and what made me decide to end it all.I love that person with all of me but I was taken for granted because he tries to maintain this discreet persona...That we agreed to meet at this certain hour and I was made to wait for more than an hour just because some girl asked him to accompany her to smoke.Totally forgetting that there was I,waiting for him,the dinner I ordered for us getting cold...And when in the car being told that I shouldnt expect too much from him,that we never made any promises prior to this relationship...and he will still marry some girl in the future and asking me why am I feeling torn..? Is asking for a small appreciation and love too much? we are just starting and I am given these information already...am I expected not to feel a thing?...Just when is really enough? I was hurting and still am.Not for him but for the fact that I have loved again...thrown all cautions in the wind and still was taken for granted.
I have ended the relationship 2 days ago prior to this writing and I was crying not from the outside.But from the innermost recesses of my soul.That I gave everything and was torn into pieces...and left alone ..crying and wondering what went wrong on my part...
I know that there is a lesson behind all of this...and right now,im still waiting for that silver lining.That someday I could fathom why it was me...why it happened and will I still be able to give everything after this...Im still keeping the faith...
"...Sana maulit muli...
di na sana aasa pa...
kung kaya ko sana..."
Just when is enough? I dont know...At this point, Im still trying to grasp everything.Making sense of what has transpired and what made me decide to end it all.I love that person with all of me but I was taken for granted because he tries to maintain this discreet persona...That we agreed to meet at this certain hour and I was made to wait for more than an hour just because some girl asked him to accompany her to smoke.Totally forgetting that there was I,waiting for him,the dinner I ordered for us getting cold...And when in the car being told that I shouldnt expect too much from him,that we never made any promises prior to this relationship...and he will still marry some girl in the future and asking me why am I feeling torn..? Is asking for a small appreciation and love too much? we are just starting and I am given these information already...am I expected not to feel a thing?...Just when is really enough? I was hurting and still am.Not for him but for the fact that I have loved again...thrown all cautions in the wind and still was taken for granted.
I have ended the relationship 2 days ago prior to this writing and I was crying not from the outside.But from the innermost recesses of my soul.That I gave everything and was torn into pieces...and left alone ..crying and wondering what went wrong on my part...
I know that there is a lesson behind all of this...and right now,im still waiting for that silver lining.That someday I could fathom why it was me...why it happened and will I still be able to give everything after this...Im still keeping the faith...
"...Sana maulit muli...
di na sana aasa pa...
kung kaya ko sana..."
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